MIA

I know that I have done a very poor job at posting these last few weeks. The truth is that I don't really know what to write about. I am trying my best to stay calm and to not get overly excited or scared. I try to push any thoughts (and therefore, post ideas!) that fall in these categories out of my mind. I don't want to get too excited and just get let down, but I don't want to get too scared and plague myself with negativity.

We are in "wait and see" mode. My next ultrasound is tomorrow afternoon. I am very anxious to see what is going on in this belly of mine!

As for the spotting, it's pretty much stopped. Monday morning was the last time I had any, and it was a very SMALL amount. If I didn't put my toilet paper under a microscope every time I wipe, I may have missed it. It is so nice to not have spotting! It so unnerving to see.

I continue to feel pretty bad in the afternoons and evenings. It doesn't matter how much I snack after lunch, by 3:00 or 3:30, I am very nauseous. It pretty much continues all night long. Fortunately, I am able to fall asleep. And I usually wake up feeling pretty normal. The sharp pains in my right ovary are pretty much gone and I haven't had a backache in awhile either. My boobs and nipples are still pretty sore. I still feel like a pig from stuffing so much food down my throat all day. I just get sick of eating. But then I know that eating is what is going to make me feel better. I have learned that things that are crunchy with cheese or cheese flavoring (mac and cheese, cheese slices, nachos, cheetos, cheese its, etc.) seem to hit the spot when I feel nauseous. Graham crackers seem to work pretty well too!